First time grandmother

Waiting to become a grandmother – worse than being pregnant?

I now totally understand how an expectant father feels waiting for his child to be born…..totally helpless. I actually feel really sorry for the guys. I was surprised at how stressed I felt the day my daughter, was induced. The baby was a week late, meaning we have all suffered for the last 41 weeks, through Becky’s long pregnancy.

When the day finally arrived, I was a total wreck. I paced the floor, drank endless cups of tea, finally switched to wine, and got really bitchy with my husband. It wasn’t his daughter going through this, it was mine. I ached for her.

After 26 hours of grueling labour under the helpful care at Women’s College Hospital in Toronto, Becky delivered – via C-section – an adorable hefty (nearly 9lb) baby.

Allowed to go home after just two days (ridiculous) I rushed over, not so much to coo over my new grandson, but to hold my daughter, tell her how much I loved her and how proud I was of her. The overwhelming love I felt for her, actually surprised me, I was more concerned at that moment about her rather than Jack. I watch her each day, growing in confidence as a new mother, and my heart fills with so much love for her. She is a very special woman, and I feel closer to her now than I think I have ever felt.

I am a besotted grandmother, my grandson is of course the most gorgeous baby, perfect in every way, I know I know, I’m biased!

I remember all over again how wonderful new babies smell as I nuzzle his little neck, I don’t care when I get milk in my hair or get pee’d on. How things have changed, I am amazed at disposable diapers, babies now sleeping on their backs and electric breast pumps… These amazing contraptions actually sound like milking machines for cows, they are very efficient, look painful, and I almost expect Becky to start mooing.

What hasn’t changed is the absolute miracle of a new life, the wonder of those little fingers and toes, and the emotions stirred at watching a baby sleeping. I am so blessed to have a wonderful relationship with my daughter and her lovely husband, who, by the way is going to be a great father. This is a new chapter in their lives together, and consequently is a new and wonderful chapter in mine.

Sob! (happily)

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